When summer started, i got bored of staying at home and doing the same routinities..
i was dying to go out, accused him for being too busy, so i had to go lying on the grass under the sun with new friends that i found more interesting.
it was fun, but with the expense of our relationship.
I was just looking for something new,
but when there was no bridge between my brain and heart, everything was a chaos.
the cooling down of the temperature made me less restless somehow.
after many fights and tears,
i know i have to be the one who hold the wheel and drive,
gotta always realize what am i sacrificing just to selfishly get what i want.
bit by bit i pick up on my old routines.
instead of calling friends for going out, i try to remember how i just love reading on my bed with a cup of tea, spending saturdays doing housework and talking to my parents, going back to church, study spanish or fail next year! , and fondly start planning again; what to cook for my sweeetheart tonight.
because it is true, what can you see when you are spinning so fast?
ps. schat, for all your patience during my rebellious period, we are having fish with sambel trasi tonight..... mmmmmmmmm....
l.l.d