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One final look at the past

Tuesday, January 04, 2005

When I thought 20,000 people gathering in Dam Square was unbelievably crowded, I still can not imagine how 140,000 dead bodies in Asia looks like.

I know I have no right to tell you all to do something, but DO SOMETHING !

Even the elementary students here are giving their 2 euros pocket money for the disaster.

And me, the real Asian, I bite my lips to hold my tears everytime I see the news. Yet, I am just too busy to open internet banking webpage and too poor to transfer 10 euro.
Until a great guy reminded me that the tears came from feeling not being able to help, and he showed how simple it is to do something.

So, please friends....

Anyway, I had a quiet christmas and a..rather crowdier new year. yes, very informative, Laurentia. I got headache from too much sleeping and it just feels good to be on my desk again.

Everything is turning too fast. I haven't even done half of my birthday resolutions, and there are already 2005 resolutions to do. who am I kidding.

I'll have one final look at the past, before moving on.

2004 highlights.. and what I have learned....

Winter
*Skiing. Honestly, there was more rolling down than skiing. But still: Yippiiii...
*Found several proofs that everything happens for a reason. I just needed to start from learning to forget, close the door, open the window, start new, do not compare, do not regret, and just like that, I'm happy. again.

Spring
*When my brother taught me so many useful things from those sci-fi movies he always watched, I learned who was actually the nerd: I freaked out if I wore the wrong shoes!
*Myself time. I discovered that plucking my eyebrows while treating my hair, and accompanied only with a cup of tea on Sunday evening, is a need.

Summer
*When I could laugh about simple things with you (yes, you..), I learned that relationship does not have to be difficult.

*I learned not to think my relationship is crappy when we fight about stupid things. Because in fact, only very intimate people (brother-sister, husband-wife) can fight about stupid things.

*Indonesia. A big relief to see how my family is getting along, how my town is still my town, my grandma is in great health. ah, also learned that eventhough you haven't met someone in years, she can still be your bestfriend.

Autumn
*Internship. Realized how spoiled I have been, only doing things that I want to do. Also learned that pure luck does not exist, we can only try to be at the right place at the right time.
*When my love one came to me with folded face, tired eyes and complains from his lips, I learned to shut my mouth and not to give advice, but just look in his eyes to say that I understand.

Winter.
*Temptations are temptations. 'Go with the flow' is childish in most matters. Learned to stick to my faith.
*Problems everywhere. But when I was falling down, I found two best girls, Mel and Sunny, my strong safety net.
*Respect.

Because no matter how thin you slice it, there will always be two sides of everything.

What a year....

p.s Happy birthday dear Mel!

RentZ at 10:08 AM